tlj

So today marks the beginning of the second week of work for me. So far I’m really enjoying my job, although I don’t spend that much of my day actually working. The people I work with are cool, and the actual office is sweet, (we have a kick ass coffee machine that entertains me all day). I think webdesign might just be something I want to pursue. I enjoy it, and its odd that I’m now getting paid to do something I screw around with so much in my free time. For those of you not up-to-date, I’m working for the HRC on their website. My main duty is to monitor and update ‘Equally Speaking’ a webcast which I actually haven’t watched myself, lol. I’m still staying with Michelle, which is nice… But I’m looking forward to being in my own space finally… Well my own 8′x8′ space hehe.

I’m really loving D.C. though. Just about everyday I come across something else that is just awesome here. (latest discovery would be a Fuddruckers.) I’m beginning to miss my home though… It was a strange realization that, here I am sleeping on the floor and I own a 1700 square foot house, completely furnished, with TWO beds in it. I think it is for the best though, and I think my future looks a lot better here then it has in years. So, my office… My boss just came in and started talking about the ‘old girl’ (her girlfriend.) It is such a strange departure to be back around a predominately gay group of people… I keep forgetting I don’t need to adjust my speaking to the ‘pronoun game’ (for those of you not familiar, this is when you take out ‘boy’ ‘girl’ ‘he’ ’she’ and use they or them, removing the gender link.) It’s a good adjustment I think.

I actually wore my GLBSU shirt out in public for the first time, well… Ever… I went through a phase when I first came out where I had the rainbow necklaces, belts etc. But a t-shirt is slightly more noticeable. I had another ‘date,’ well I’m not sure if I can call it that… I had dinner again with a very cool guy who lives in VA. I’m not really sure about a lot of things… But he’s really nice, and attractive… So… This leads me to the issue of ‘I’m not dating!’ I’m torn, I’m on the road to self sufficiency, but I’m the kind of person where I’m either going to be independent, or dependent… I don’t think I’m capable of integrating the two things. So either I keep going the way I am, and make it so I never want, or can maintain an actual relationship… Or I go ahead and try this ‘coupling’ thing one more time, and try to make it balance out. I wont let myself become dependent any more though, it’s simply not an option.

The religion issue has come up again though… In California, we have Christians, don’t for a second think I’m saying we don’t. But the majority of the hardliners, are from out of state, at least with the ones I’ve met. Apparently, they are from the east coast/deep south. I was raised like most Americans (or so I thought until recently), which is where you do Easter and Christmas, but you do the hallmark versions… We only went to church once as a family, although I went through a phase where I asked to go around 4th grade, when I was the only one in my class not going every week, (peer pressure! roflmao). Catholic school later on taught me a lot about Christianity (obviously catholic POV), and going to mass often was at the very least a learning experience. I wont post my religious views on here… But suffice it to say I don’t exactly practice anything at this time. What I will say on the matter is that no matter what you believe, you have free will to pick and choose what you want to do. No one has the right to tell you what you think is wrong, it’s your choice and your belief. YOURS. I am perfectly happy talking about the subject because it is very interesting, but the second you decide my view is incorrect, I’m done. So why did I end up on this tangent? Because I am meeting more self hating gay Christians out here then I ever though was possible. I know there are gay Christians, I know many… What I hadn’t encountered were the ones who were so absolutely devout. I don’t know how you can be two things at once that at their very core conflict so readily. The guy I am interested in and I got into a talk about religion on the first night we went out (hung out?) and I know he’s christian, his myspace features a list of heroes, including jesus… The last time I even considered getting involved with anyone remotely serious about their religion was Topher… and some of you know how that went. Michelle said, “you can steal them away from anyone, except jesus, they will always choose jesus over you.” Which I have on par, found to be accurate.

So… What else you may ask?
Things I’ve learned in my time in D.C.:

• Maryland sucks (and by sucks I mean is scary and you might get shot)… don’t go there, same thing goes for the NE and SE parts of DC
• The bus is like the green-ness of grass, and always shows up 5 times across the street in the time I’m waiting on my side.
• The green line goes nowhere you want to… stay away from it.
• Avoid the activists, they are so hopped up on their cause they make even causes like ’save the puppies!’ seem creepy…
• Cuban food is nummy!
• 9 times out of 10 you can outrun the bus on foot.
• The beggers on the street make more a week then I do.
• The longest escalator in the western hemisphere is really disappointing.
• Targets can be inside Malls, and they have the coolest thing to move carts between floors!
• Using a wireless network that you don’t own is apparently a federal offense…
• You can pay state taxes… even when you don’t live in a state.

Alrighty well I’m going to call this done, and go get some lunch… Check back, I’m hoping to keep this up to date, like my old xanga used to be…

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