tlj

So I keep wanting to write in here again, but I’m not sure what about… Work has been going well, nothing spectacular, but I enjoy it. I have a 3.5 day weekend and I’m actually wishing I could go in… weird. I moved in last week, so I’m no longer homeless. The room is nice enough for what I pay, I feel safe here and the area is nice and close, (13th and R streets NW, so near logan circle/dupont). I can’t get over riding around in a car and BAM there’s the capitol, or BAM there’s X monument. It’s cool to be somewhere that’s actually interesting. I am beginning to miss home, and cody and cole. I can’t seem to decide if I want to stay here or not, I definitely like having a life, but I’ve got so much on my mind half the time I end up just sitting around thinking about it, or walking around. I spent a good portion of my time down in Virginia this weekend, and on the way back to DC friday I got to thinking about how I’m sliding back to being submissive about life again. I’ve decided I’m capable of being strong when I make an effort, but most the time I just let things happen… I’m not really a big fan of that, so I’m back to trying to be firm and speak up, stand up etc. At work I spent an entire day working on a project, only to have it re-done behind me. So I spoke up. I just asked that I be told in the future up front instead of having it done behind me. I’m not sure if that worked out for or against me, but I feel like there’s not point in being submissive… If my opinions or stances get me fired, or dumped, then you know what… I was probably going to be miserable there anyway. On another note, I’m fucked. Financially… I think i’m going to apply for a second job this week, short of incurring massive debt there is no way i’ll make it out here as an intern. So thats where I am this weekend. I’m screwed but I’m working on it… Hopefully i’ll get it fixed… its like filling the bathtub with the stopper pulled, and no water pressure… lol. Try as I might there is no way to plug that hole ;).

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